Last fall, I completely stopped posting on social media for my own peace of mind. I wanted to get away from the toxicity of social media. I don’t know what it is, but everyone on there is desperate for attention and validation. It made me feel some type of way. Not jealousy, but more like pity and disgust. And like I always have, I isolated myself.
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Dear Mental Illness
TW: Thoughts of suicide
I just want to let you know that you have absolutely destroyed my life. You destroyed any chance I have to achieve things I wanted to achieve because you’ve crippled me.
Aside from the mental pain, you also cause me physical pain. My muscles and my joints ache. I get stomach aches. I get headaches and just recently, frequent migraines. You make being alive too much work. And sometimes I question if it’s even worth it.
Continue reading “Dear Mental Illness”I’m Going To Start Liking This Little Life – Eventually
It hasn’t been a bad month but not a very good month either. In less than 30 days, I found a new therapist (she’s great), my husband had knee surgery, I witnessed a shooting, and now my dog has to be medicated because he’s too anxious and gets excited about everything – if that makes sense.
Continue reading “I’m Going To Start Liking This Little Life – Eventually”Ozempic Turned Me Into A Monster
I went up to .50mg a month ago. A week later, there was a difference in my moods and my anxiety was at its worse. I already suffer from schizoaffective disorder and the paranoia and auditory hallucinations all came back. Then the suicidal thoughts came back as well.
This went on for 2 more weeks until I had my monthly check in with my doctor and I explained to her what was happening to me. She told me that they are starting studies on the effects of the medication with mental health. There’s a 38% chance of having depression and suicidal thoughts…which is already bad when you already have those to begin with. She recommended I go back to my .25mg dosage any maybe it could help.
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